Good morning to all who may be reading this!

God's known as the great potter who molds us and makes us into the image that He wishes for us, but right now I feel that He's more like a blacksmith who's stuck my heart in the flames of shame - shame upon the realization that I'm totally not living as I should - and now He's hammering away on me bending me back into a craft that He can smile over.

I feel the need to be honest, so let me just say that I'm a selfish person.  I love people, but only when it means that they'll make me feel good.  I don't love with a sacrificial love like Christ.  I love my things a LOT!!!  (said "things" include my four guitars, my pedal, and my amp right now)  I'm always thinking about the next thing I want to get for myself, all in the name of "providing for my ministry" and "having more and better tools for me to make my music with".

I love my things, but Jesus said plainly in black and white that if anyone wishes to follow Him he should sell all He has and give to the poor... wow!  That's still sinking in...
God's reminding me that I don't own anything, but all that I have with me here are the things that He has entrusted to me.  I ought to be focusing on using what I have in the way that God would want me to use it, and if that means giving it up for someone else in need, so be it!

I feel that I don't have enough in the way of equipment as a musician should have, but I'm starting to realize that if I need it, God wants to provide it.  But He won't provide for me everything I need unless I'm willing to let go of my possessions and selfishness.  I also feel that I don't make enough money right now, but I keep tithing thinking that this is the only way in which I'm required to give of it.  WRONG!!!  God says that I am supposed to love sacrificially and that I am to give in reckless generosity...  am I doing that now?  No.  Am I really trusting God and living by faith if I'm not fulfilling this command?  NO!

From now on, I want to live in faith and by the richness and fulness of God's relentless blessing, and I don't want to be absorbed in myself and in the things I want to have.
"Change my heart, oh God!  Make it ever true.  Change my heart, oh God!  May I be like You."

Anyone with me?

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A word of caution. In your desire to rely on God, don't make the mistake of throwing away all your stuff and then become a burden on others for the things you need for ministry and life. Maybe you don't need four guitars (though there's nothing wrong with that in and of itself - it's the heart, not the stuff) but if the Lord is wanting to use you in a music ministry, you have to play something.

Just a thought; not trying to discourage your heart for God. Blessings!
Thanks for your encouragement! I obviously didn't mean that I was going to disable myself in my musical capacity by getting rid of all my gear. It's just that I need to learn to be content with what I have and not spend all my energy pursuing more. I also want to be available to help others who may be in need of equipment by having some things that I can lend or give away.

I don't want to become a burden on others. I just want to learn to depend on God and not on myself.
Thank you for caution! It's certainly a delicate balance, I'm sure, between being foolishly unwise prayerfully reliant.
Hi Jason,

It must have taken some guts for you to be so honest. Scripture says to' live in the world, but not of the world' and I think you are not nearly as selfish as you think you are, if you are recognising the need to change and are openly admitting your faults and weaknesses, and believe you me, we all have them.

I have to laugh, 'cos to me, you just sound like a typical, male musician who likes his gadgets. I can be guilty of many of the things you have mentioned (apart from the gadget thing) and God gives me a prod every now and then to keep me in check, Do your best, that's all the Lord is asking of you, and remember He loves you and cares for you enough to give you a prod too : )

God Bless you. Lorraine
Lorraine - where does it say to live in the world but not of the world? I've been searching for for that high and wide and can't find it. I'm pretty sure it's in there...I Corinthains seems right, but I couldn't find it.
You know Stevo, I thought it was in there too, it just kinda popped into my head when I was posting, but I couldn't find those exact words, how about........

Romans 12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, in order to prove by you what is that good and pleasing and perfect will of God.
You may have also been thinking about John 17:
13 “I am coming to you now, but I say these things while I am still in the world, so that they may have the full measure of my joy within them. 14 I have given them your word and the world has hated them, for they are not of the world any more than I am of the world. 15 My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. 16 They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. 17 Sanctify them by[d] the truth; your word is truth. 18 As you sent me into the world, I have sent them into the world. 19 For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified.
There's also a verse that talks about "but then you would utterly be out of the World". I'm thinking it's not in the Gospels...
There's Hebrews 11: 13-16 which expresses a similar kind of thing. Also, John 15:18-20, which is along the same lines as Toni's quote. And, perhaps, Phillipians 3:20. Though, I think all these passages need careful reading (since I'm not of the persuasion that thinks, "at the end of time we all escape this Earth and go off to heaven as disembodies spririts").
Or you might be thinking of I Cor 5:9-11

"I wrote you in my letter not to associate with immoral people; I did not at all mean the immoral people of this world, or the covetous and swindlers, or idolaters, for then you would have to go out of the world. But actually I wrote to you not to associate with any so-called brother if he should be an immoral person...."
I'm all for you giving up your stuff. That would be a spiritual and good thing to do. Currently, I need a couple more guitars. I just know God has been working in the background to provide me a Gretsch. It's essential for ministry. Do you have my Gretsch? Are you the one chosen to provide it?
Na, I don't have a Gretsch. It would be pretty cool if I had one, but I'm kinda' running on a budget-minded intermediate player's line up. Pardon me for saying, but I don't think that expensive guitars are really essential for ministry. They are just helpful to the musician using them. I pray God is able to bless you with that Gretsch you are wanting, but right now I think God might be trying use you where He has you, so try to keep an open mind, and don't miss out on the moment God's blessed you with.
OK. I just thought I'd help you accomplish your goals. I'm here man, whenever you feel the need to offload your gear for the sake of the kingdom. I'm pretty sure I can use it for the Kingdom...


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