Diana, Our income has taken a very bad plummet. We have lost the unemployment benefits and the minimum wage my husband receives is not enough to do just about anything. It is a very stressful time.
I have not received the critique. I e-mailed SongDiscovery a month ago, and got no response. I e-mailed them again at a different address just now. I hope that I will hear something. I tend to forget about it, until you remind me. Thanks for reminding me!
On another side, I have written another song. I know you write one a day, but this is huge for me as I don't have a lot of free time. I hope to get some kinks worked out on it and put it on my page. It isn't a worship song though. It is a song about abortion. I am nervous about sharing it with others...kind of controversial, but my hope is that love and compassion reign supreme. I have also been trying to put together enough songs to make a show of sorts. I have a couple of places that I can perform, but have told them that I wasn't ready. I am feeling called to take the risk...see what happens...
Well, thank you for continuing to pray for me. I love your prayers! And I love you! Thank you...Kara
You are right. It is much harder while he is still in the house than after he has left. When he is still at home, it is like living with an elephant in the room. Now at least you have a little breathing room. While I have been in churches where we have asked a leader to step down from ministry due to divorce/affairs, I don't think it is right to ask you to step down, unless you are just needing some time for you. From what you have told me, you are doing exactly what the Bible tells you to do. It says if an unbeliever wants to go, let him go. You can't force him to stay in the marriage, if he doesn't want to. I understand how painful it must feel to have your one love (worship ministry) seemingly riped away from you. Please remember, no one can keep you from worshipping! You may not be out front, but God still loves our music even when it is just us...alone. Lord, help the women in Diana's church turn to the scriptures for guidance in helping Diana through this difficult time. Help them to have ears to hear and eyes to see. May love and truth reign.
Hi,Diana! I am somewhat back in the land of the living. It has been a rough first trimester for me. Mostly feeling fatigued. I still am tired, but hanging in there. I haven't heard from SongCheck. It has been about a month. How are things with you and the process of the divorce?
No developments on the job front or with the house. We have another 30 days in the house. I don't have a new baby...yet. I am expecting in November. No, I haven't heard back yet on the critique. Hopefully next week sometime. I am exhausted and trying to focus what energy I do have into the kids schooling.
Oh, I forgot to answer...Yes, my husband does have a job, but it is only for 35 hrs a week and for about a third of what he was making. There have been some discussions of it leading to more gainful employment, but it hasn't yet.
We decided to wait two more weeks before deciding which course of bankruptcy to pursue. Because of how large of a family we don't have a lot of options at this point in time as to where to live. Which is one of the reasons we are waiting. There is no family that we could stay with, maybe a week or two with my parents but that is it. Someone mentioned they might have a house that we could rent. But the question is whether we can get it for cheap enough. We can only afford $600 for the rent and all utilities. We would like to buy a cheap trailer to live in and rent a space in an RV park. But with our bad credit that doesn't seem to be an option. We figured we could afford $2-300 month for paying for the trailer and then the other $300 to go toward space rent. We have joked about living in our tent in a park, since the weather is getting nicer. Another possibility is to move back to Oregon and rely on the generosity of my husband's already struggling family. I could run in circles trying to figure it all out, but I need to rest in the fact that God has it all worked out. He has a plan. He is in control.
And PRAISE God for that!
Diana, Tomorrow we meet with an attorney about declaring bankruptcy. In doing so we will lose the house. I don't know the time frame, but I think it is about 45-60 days out from now. I am OK with losing the house. Everything is falling apart. Right now our furnace is broke, amoung other things. We are not going to fix it. We already put over $1000 into it 2 weeks ago. I just don't know where we will go...I am trusting god completely!
Yes! We moved from Ontario Canada to Greenwich CT USA this past July to worship pastor at a church part time as well as continue traveling. We LOVE it here and God is so faithful! So we're excited about the future. :)
HI DIANA i was browsing your page and was encouraged by your zest for life ,and even more your passion for the LORD you are a blessing to many people i am sure,just your smile says ''hey its not that bad we have some one who cares JESUS'' bless you and your family -LUIS
Diana, I am still breathing. Sorry for not getting back to you. It has been crazy here. My husband and I both got sinus infections, then we ran out of propane (our heat), our furnace broke, our pipes froze, our dishwasher broke, and today our lawn mower broke. Everything is now fixed except the lawn mower. I was trying to get some of the tall grasses that I didn't get before winter came crashing down on us. Thankfully I won't need the mower for a few more weeks. Anyway, it was like everything was just going wrong at once. So I am now finally able to sit down at my computer for a few minutes. Yes, I am on facebook. I think my name is the same...Kara Lynn Becker. The pic is my daughter and I huging on our birthday. I do have a new bridge for Counting on You that I think is so much better, but I still need to record it. Actually, I did do a rough recording of it with me playing the guitar about a week and a half ago. I think that I will try and send you that. It is rough. I recorded vocals and guitar with one mic sitting on my guitar case. Not the best sound quality, but I was trying to be somewhat quick. I will try to send you that.