Is it really ok not to be ok for worship leaders?
Why do I feel pressured to look happy even though I really am not? Sometimes I get so sad that I just want to let everything go, forget about everything, go to the mountains and meditate. But I can't. And even though I can't, I probably would not want to. I'd rather sing my lungs out to the Lord than cry in one little corner by myself. But sometimes, I don't want to do either.
Sometimes I feel like I just want to run away from it all. Then a kind thought would enter my mind, telling me that everything's gonna be ok. And it's such a happy thought, I believe it with all my heart. Then when things are not getting better, I ask that happy thought - "Is everything really gonna be ok?". Then it tells me "Yes". Then I believe it again.
Is it ok to be sad? To show people that you are sad?